hi guys! It's been a really long time since I've posted on here, but I really wanted to talk about something that I feel is important to mention, and I felt like this was the perfect platform to do so! With that being said, let's talk about college.
Many of y'all know that I am attending TCU and I absolutely love it! Slly week is the best thing ever and was so fun, I rushed a sorority and am in love with it, I saw Pitbull and Jon Pardi in concert, I've spent many nights line dancing till 1am, stayed in an unairconditioned cabin with my sorority sisters, joined the most amazing new family (shoutout to my big and my twin), been to countless tailgates and football games, and I've attended my classes too I guess.
Now, I say all of that, and it sounds picture perfect, like I'm living my best life and I am loving TCU, however, there are definitely many trying moments. The whole time I've been here, I've been noticing myself constantly comparing my life to others based on their instagram pictures, snapchat private stories, or the quick conversation I had with them in passing. I constantly feel as if I'm not doing enough. I haven't found that perfect friend group that so many seem to have. I haven't met many guys. I haven't this or I haven't that, I am constantly feeding these thoughts to myself. The sad things is, I named all those things above that I have done, but it is so easy to get caught up in what it seems like other people have, that we neglect what we do have. I say all these things that I feel I don't have, not to make anyone feel bad for me, but rather to spread more awareness around how what we are seeing on social media is only what people want you to see, whether intentionally or unintentionally.
It dawned on me recently while talking to a friend from back home, that I too was putting up this facade. My snapchats make it seem like everything is great here, no issues with friends or school or missing my family. Although I try to be a real person on social media, I'm not gonna pull out my phone while I'm crying and wanting to give up on college, no one would. Whether we are trying to or not, we mostly only show positive sides to our lives. I wanted to share this because I want you all to see that you are not at all alone. No matter what part of college isn't going perfectly for you, you are meant to be where you are right now and you will figure it out.
The priest said it best at Church this morning when he said, "you will find security, you will find your people, you will find exactly what you are looking for, just not on your own schedule but on God's schedule."
It helped me to realize that I was not alone when I was talking to a friend, who was struggling more than I thought she was, because on social media it had seemed like she had everything figured out. She then mentioned to me that she had thought the same thing about me, when I feel far from comfortable here. Being uncomfortable all the time is not easy, but it is normal. All of these feelings are normal, and that is what I keep reminding myself.
To sum all this up, social media isn't always what it seems. We know this, but it is still so easy to neglect. Even while writing this post, I saw someone's story of them all hanging out in a dorm room and I thought to myself why is that not me. Patience guys, your time, our time, it will come. You may totally relate to all this, you may not at all relate to this, or you may relate to bits and pieces, but either way trust where you are right now, trust that God's plan is unraveling, even if it feels slow. Know that you are not alone. I know it can feel like you are, trust me I get it. But I love y'all so much and you all know I'm always here.
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